there are some things that i'd just rather not know.



anyways, i'm really missing home and Singapore right now..

i miss my room - clean, organised, beautifully climate-controlled with a ReAL bED to sleep on.

i miss not having to care so much.

i miss the church - almost everything.

i miss my kitchen - well-stocked and well-equipped where i can experiment all i want and get the younger ones to wash up...
haha no not really........ .
well, sometimes. hoho.

i miss knowing exactly where to go to get what i want.

i miss walking around the local neighbourhoods, mingling with the oldies and indulging my inner auntie.

i miss the crappy tv shows that tries to pass off as television fodder..and switching to cable when i've had enough :D

i miss the food (but of course).

i miss the family and friends that i haven't seen for so long - the laughing and being-stupid-ness of it all, sharing late night suppers, exchanging crappy jokes and anecdotes, living on the cheap, catching up with teenhood friends...

i miss the old me.

At last i remembered my username and password!




*blows dust off blog*

craaaaaaaaaaaaaap im sick n coughy and fevery and to make it worse, im going for the 8-day taipei mission trip this sunday!!!!

until the 17th! and wait, isn't that the start of the orientation week? ha, think i'll have to be late (heh but i will support the ogls n whatnot in prayer!)

but complaints aside, and despite myself, i'm pretty excited about the taipei trip. apparently, experienced people say that there's going to be so much to do that everyday we'd only get to sleep at 3am and get up at 7 am. wowee i'll either die or become stronger.

anyway, it's good to be back, but i miss perth, but then really, its good to be back, but i really kinda miss perth, but its good to be back, but i miss perth...aurgh!
i think utopia for me would be a combination of Perth and Singapore.

(oh and i realised something important

that we'd never really understand the other
we're from two different worlds
and never the twain shall meet

not that i don't care, but think its best to avoid unnecessary conversation :)
you know i hate conflict. )

A major exam coming up tomorrow, and the heavy weight of assignments weighing on my delicate shoulders.
As usual, it is in times such as this, where every second must be seized and compunded into precious minutes of productivity, that the urge to blog returns.

What is wrong with me?!

Oh, whatever.


I'll start studying soon. Right after i blog this for the sake of posterity-

Yesterday, AuStRALiA wOn tHEiR fiRSt WoRLD CuP MatCH in tHiRtY YEaRS!

3 goals in 8 minutes!
(Incidentally, 3+8=11 -> 1+1=2 and guess wat! 2 happens to be one of my top ten favourite digits! tWO good tWO be t(r)WO! pure coincidence? i don't think so. although i realise i can't for the life of me figure out what this might portend.)

and just now, as i was watching the news and replays (while erm studying), i felt a sense of love and warmth and patriotism welling up within me...go SoCCEROOOOOOOOS!!!! I almost teared le.

hai but their next match is probably gonna be with brazil, a team i love too. i'm so torn.

(i'm not a soccer fanatic though, i only watch the world cup every 4 yrs.)



On another note, a pic of a pathetic attempt to create something vaguely "gourmet" looking.

yummy spaghetti by jamie, fish by me and cheap supermarket garlic bread that we burnt.

some snap realisations:

- am such a bad blogger that just one page of my blog spans three years.

- last month marks the seventh year since i began the walk with my Creator.

I’m sitting on YOUR knee
beholding YOUR Holiness
and mystified I ask,
“Why?
Look at YOU,
YOU could be so happy.
All glory, honour and majesty
belong to YOU.

In all of Heaven,
YOUR Will and YOUR Word
is as good as done.
Why allow YOUR Name
to be mocked by ignorance
Why let YOUR Heart
be grieved by stupidity
and pride.
Why should Hands
that made the Heavens and the Earth
have scars made by
mere men?”


But

When I look

deep into YOUR eyes,

and YOU smile,


I know.


How can it be
that I’ve been found
by such perfect Beauty.


And I live everyday,
a never-ending story;
of how someone like me
could be loved by
Someone like YOU.

--anonymous

yAy! new template! was starting to hate the old look...



AnywAys,

What childhood toy from the 80s are you?

You're a Speak & Spell!! You nerd, you. Just because you were disguised as a toy doesn't mean you weren't educational, you sneaky bastard.
Take this quiz!








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nerd, eh? haha!

just downloaded this genius application that's SKyPE but no mic n all!
then suddenly, someone, with uncharacteristic generosity haha, passed me this really cool webcam-and-mic-in-one thing! thank YOU, GOD! however, as excited as i was installing it, realised later that couldn't find AnYONE that was up to test it out with...booo. oh well, i guess i keep forgetting that there ArE many people out there who sleep before midnight.

anyways, i really really! miss u all, n all the suppering, the (haha) "ock-ing", the corny jokes inventing, the hysterical laughing, just sitting around talking, etc.



Also, went to fremantle with visitin cousins and family today. thing is, something that happened really annoyed me and it annoys me everytime it happens. grr.



on a lighter note, last minutely went to see a movie with max and ruwei. eh Casanova very attractive meh.

oh my goodness, the last post sounded abit weirdy.


It wasn't me.



ooh was perusing photos and came across this.






waah!looks good!
haha second attempt. *ahem* sources say that it was pretty tasty.



Here's what some had to say:

"finger lickin' good!" - Col. Sanders

"It just gets better." - B. King

"I'm lovin' it..." - Ron



Oh, you're too kind.


anyways it's really really easy. Just get all the cuts of beef you can find that'll make good soup (shin, brisket, the one with all that exposed marrow, etc), wash it, toss it in a pot with some filtered water.

Boil it for a bit then serve.





HaHA!just kidding!
Please also add some cloves, cinnamon, dark soy sauce, star anise, black peppercorns and abit of five spice if you want. I may have forgotten something but probably not la.

Anyways, boil on high heat for awhile then slow boil for a few hours at least. Overnight even better!

Half an hour before serving, toss in some beefballs (and unshelled hardboiled eggs if u want) and salt if needed.

Boil noodles add beansprouts! Drain. Add soup and beef (melt-in-your-mouth beef by now, if I may add). White pepper if you want. Garnish with coriander and cut chillis.

Voila!

Your very own homemade beef noodle soup!

wish I could just catch up with people without having to worry or being caught up with the rush and busyness and all.


time constraints------- begoone!
money constraints----- beegone!
no-car constraints----- beeeeegone!
energy constraints----- yaaargh beegone!


heh.

i thnk i'm mad.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaagh haha driven by sheer emotion (of homesickness, some amount of sadness, nervousness but also, excitement and anticipation) am breaking my blogging fast/sabbatical/strike in changi airport terminal 2.




byee Singapore (for now of cos)
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hulloooooooooooo Perth!




think this will be a busy semester :)
I hope i survive.

Your element is Earth. You have your feet on the
ground and are in touch with reality. Some may
say you need to lighten up, but you are just
not that way. It's not that you don't enjoy
having fun, you only find it in more calmer
activities such as writing or reading a book.
But before you have your fun you always make
sure your work is done. You are considered the
reliable one among your friends, you would
never betray anyone just like and are not
influenced on peer-pressure. Friends and family
can always come to you for guidance because you
are wise and smart. You know what is right and
what is wrong and you study hard to become
something big in the future. The bad side is
that your friend/s feel ignored when you spend
more time with books and papers rather with
them. You are not such a people person and are
sometimes a question-mark on how to behave
around them at certain times. Luckily it always
works out, somehow. Love is not really desired
in your world right now, maybe in the future
when you've got a work and so on under control.
After all, you are a perfectionist. Rate and
message!


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i KNeW it! especially the part about "But before you have your fun you always make sure your work is done."

haha decided to take it again seeing as the earth answer is so wonky.


Your element is Fire. Like fire, you have a hot

temper and you can be warm and loving as well

and angry and wild. It all really comes down

to what you are feeling. You have a lot of

close friends who you are very protective

over, and with your temper probably some

enemies too. You are not Miss/Mr Popular in

school since you are your own person and

don't want to be forced into behaving this or

that way. You are the untamed wild horse, the

kind that everyone wants to catch. But you

don't want to be tied down for the moment and

just keep going with your little crushes.

Your will is strong and if you set your mind

to do something, you will most likely

succeed. But beware, your friends may not

always accept your mood-swinging behaviour.

Even if you don't mean to be mean, they can

still feel hurt. You just need to start

thinking some things through before you do

them, and not always jump in with so much

courage. One day you may be hurt because of

that, but then again, your element isn't fire

if you start to analyse situations before you

act. After all, your nature is to shoot first

and ask the questions later.


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wahaha now i'm mean and hot-tempered! don't mess with me man.

Main Type	Overall Self

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oh my gosh just read my previous post and think i sound a bit mad. heh must be the assignment period. realise that i only blog when i'm really busy like when i'm SuPPOSED to be studying for exams (ie. last year) or when i'm supposed to be doing assignments (ie. now).

ladeedah.

haha haven't blogged in eons. don't know if anyone still comes here NeVERTHELEsS i realised that as solipsistic as this might sound, i actually LiKE reading my own posts.heh!

anyways, in the future, when i become WiLDLY successful and famous, it'd be nice for me to come here and look back on the days when i was just an ordinary, simple youth, unfettered by the wiles of this world.

dear future self
So! hows life? writing yET another brilliant novel, whilst saving souls, in the midst of securing a monumental peace pact? *chuckle* i thought so.

well! dear wonderful, future self, let me just remind you what this point in time in the last few months since the last post has been like!

-> after cramming like mad for the exams and telling the whole world to pray for me, haha MiRACULOUSLy managed to clear aLL my units! woohooo! esp. the &@#! philo 290 and anthrop 239.

-> fell victim to a debilitating disease : COnStIPATIOn. oh, what a gruelling time, but through pure grit and determination to hold on, i pulled through.

-> went to friend's house(which was huge luxurious and stately with super views of the sea and sunsets n all. *jealous*. haha.) in mandurah for a few days of fun in the sun but partly because of the weather, spent most of the time watching some korean drama, playing table tennis and taking photos. quite fun le!

-> summer hols! had a good time catching up with frens and realised how much i missed them. (wantd to go into greater detail but fingers are getting tired from typing).

-> discovered the joys of korean dramas!

-> realised that i really like aloe vera juice and home-cooked food.

-> etc etc etc. (haha am getting bored at the sight of my own words and also finger fatigue from typin).

till next time!
toodle-oo!

To whom it may concern:

haha! some people kena scolded!tee heee....

but i not angry la just traumatised forever.

anyway, now that exams are near i shall take a leaf from psyence's book (or camouflage helmet) and stay away from blogging for a while...or reading other people's blogs from tomorrow!

till next time (21 nov) toodle-oo!

What a wonderful world --louis armstrong

i see trees of green red roses too

i see them bloom for me and you

and i think to myself what a woderful world

i see skies of blue and clouds of white

the bright blessed day, the dark sacred night

and i think to myself what a wonderful world

the colours of the rainbow so pretty in the sky

are also on the faces of people walking by

i see friends shaking hands saying how do you do

what they're really saying is i love you

i hear babies crying i watch them grow

they'll learn much more than i'll ever know

and i think to myself what a wonderful world

yes i think to myself what a wonderful world

whoa, i really really need to go full speed with my work now....exams are LooMiNg and i'm still clearing up my assignments!anyone who prays, please help me pray!!!!

really need to SToP talking to my housemates so late into the night!
just the night before, we not only talked til 4-5plus, we also, in tHE MiDDLe of tHe NiGHt started baking banana muffins!aaagh!when will this madness stop??

and its not the first time!many a night of productive (if one sleeps well would have more energy to operate in a diligent and motivated fashion the next day wat) sleep has been wasted tALking n tALKing....gotta have discipline!

okie, enough griping.
back to work!
:)

i am one traumatised individual today.

just got back my 2000 word philosophy essay today in which i scored the yummy grade of 75

BuT

had to have 30marks deleted because it waas LaTE!!!!
...urk...gasp....gurgle....

oh gosh.a fren form S'pore just told me something that has me reeling with shock. am speechless.

why am i the way i am why cant i be who i want to be who You want me to be the way im supposed to be its always take it drop it leave it cant stop it i love life and thank You but i want to be more but how when i fall so much.

heh. oh ya just received an mms from Singapore from one of my favourite people. crappy as usual but very cheer-uppish. Thank YOU GOD! :)

ohnoo.
was just reprimanded by a well-meaning friend.feel quite lousy now.

this is what i want to do:

circle the globe many times over by foot, by air, by train, by ship, bus, caravan! meet people from everywhere to talk to share with to laugh with! see and experience different cultures, traditions, rituals, lives!feed the poor, eradicate hunger, relieve the downtrodden! write novels! win peace!


this is what i am doing:

sitting in the school library trying to finish up my assignments.


urhk. my assignments are robbing me of my destiny.

ahaha haven't posted in a while would like to say that it's cos that ive been busy but its NOt. Its cos ive been slack. but then again not that i owe it to anyone to keep up with the updates anyway. heh.

some publishable (some things can't say la) highlights of the week.

Search for a Star- a smorgasbord of spice girls, grease, broadway, hip-hop, shakespeare, cantopop, classical rawk, gospel, very public love declaration, medieval elements and the like.

the choir rehearsals preceding the event and my love-hate relationship with them(find it a drag but am now looking back on them with some fondness. sic.)

was strongly adVISed by cell-leader and zone sup to quit some ministries but as yet don't know which.

sat in a car, for the first time, with june in the driver's seat- and survived.

had my first decent phone conversation with cheryl(pretty, fun and nice to talk to- all you guys, take a number and get behind the queue :) ) which i enjoyed.

received two issues of 8days from S'pore from a dear friend(which i will one day take some space here to appreciate) just as i was feeling really homesick. very timely.

developed a really bad throat and some fever took high doses of lemsip in a desperate bid to get better but miraculously only felt better after a whole night of shouting, screaming and cheering at the show. hm.

completed my major philosophy essay.(yesyesyes!)

An ode to indomie

i love the humble indomie
more than pretty flowers, trees.
and if you should know please tell me
where i can get some more for free.

cant believe im jumping on the bloggerland bandwagon. haven't decided yet if i'm going to make this a private blog(haven't told many abt the existence of this blog anyway), there seems to be something so fallacious(or narcissistic?) about writing down your personal thoughts and feelings down so publicly. i mean how can one be ReaL and personal n at the same time act according to the fact that people might be reading this(which automatically induces excessive mindfulness regarding self-presentation). phooey.

on a lighter note, have decided that i'm gonna eat indo mie for dinner. i love those things. so yay.

why should i do what you want me to do to care what you think or how you feel just get off my back and let me breathe.thanks.