whoa, i really really need to go full speed with my work now....exams are LooMiNg and i'm still clearing up my assignments!anyone who prays, please help me pray!!!!

really need to SToP talking to my housemates so late into the night!
just the night before, we not only talked til 4-5plus, we also, in tHE MiDDLe of tHe NiGHt started baking banana muffins!aaagh!when will this madness stop??

and its not the first time!many a night of productive (if one sleeps well would have more energy to operate in a diligent and motivated fashion the next day wat) sleep has been wasted tALking n tALKing....gotta have discipline!

okie, enough griping.
back to work!
:)

i am one traumatised individual today.

just got back my 2000 word philosophy essay today in which i scored the yummy grade of 75

BuT

had to have 30marks deleted because it waas LaTE!!!!
...urk...gasp....gurgle....

oh gosh.a fren form S'pore just told me something that has me reeling with shock. am speechless.

why am i the way i am why cant i be who i want to be who You want me to be the way im supposed to be its always take it drop it leave it cant stop it i love life and thank You but i want to be more but how when i fall so much.

heh. oh ya just received an mms from Singapore from one of my favourite people. crappy as usual but very cheer-uppish. Thank YOU GOD! :)

ohnoo.
was just reprimanded by a well-meaning friend.feel quite lousy now.

this is what i want to do:

circle the globe many times over by foot, by air, by train, by ship, bus, caravan! meet people from everywhere to talk to share with to laugh with! see and experience different cultures, traditions, rituals, lives!feed the poor, eradicate hunger, relieve the downtrodden! write novels! win peace!


this is what i am doing:

sitting in the school library trying to finish up my assignments.


urhk. my assignments are robbing me of my destiny.

ahaha haven't posted in a while would like to say that it's cos that ive been busy but its NOt. Its cos ive been slack. but then again not that i owe it to anyone to keep up with the updates anyway. heh.

some publishable (some things can't say la) highlights of the week.

Search for a Star- a smorgasbord of spice girls, grease, broadway, hip-hop, shakespeare, cantopop, classical rawk, gospel, very public love declaration, medieval elements and the like.

the choir rehearsals preceding the event and my love-hate relationship with them(find it a drag but am now looking back on them with some fondness. sic.)

was strongly adVISed by cell-leader and zone sup to quit some ministries but as yet don't know which.

sat in a car, for the first time, with june in the driver's seat- and survived.

had my first decent phone conversation with cheryl(pretty, fun and nice to talk to- all you guys, take a number and get behind the queue :) ) which i enjoyed.

received two issues of 8days from S'pore from a dear friend(which i will one day take some space here to appreciate) just as i was feeling really homesick. very timely.

developed a really bad throat and some fever took high doses of lemsip in a desperate bid to get better but miraculously only felt better after a whole night of shouting, screaming and cheering at the show. hm.

completed my major philosophy essay.(yesyesyes!)

An ode to indomie

i love the humble indomie
more than pretty flowers, trees.
and if you should know please tell me
where i can get some more for free.

cant believe im jumping on the bloggerland bandwagon. haven't decided yet if i'm going to make this a private blog(haven't told many abt the existence of this blog anyway), there seems to be something so fallacious(or narcissistic?) about writing down your personal thoughts and feelings down so publicly. i mean how can one be ReaL and personal n at the same time act according to the fact that people might be reading this(which automatically induces excessive mindfulness regarding self-presentation). phooey.

on a lighter note, have decided that i'm gonna eat indo mie for dinner. i love those things. so yay.

why should i do what you want me to do to care what you think or how you feel just get off my back and let me breathe.thanks.